friends

I have always had a really hard time making friends. Ever since I was little I was the type of person with 1, maybe 2 friends, and that was it. I am a fairly quiet and incredibly shy person and that has always hindered me.

The year that I spend at Bible college in NY was one of the best times of my life simply because of the friends I had. I had the most, and best friends I'd ever had there. Leaving was one of the hardest things to do.

The time Dahvede and I spent in New Zealand was difficult for both of us, because neither of us felt that we had many really close friends. I had my family, and having grown up homeschooled, that was very normal for me, but Dahvede really struggled.

Moving to Arizona had me really scared for a long time. I know how hard making friends is for me, so I was really worried.

BUT - here comes the best part of the story!!! God proved Himself to me in such an amazing way and blessed Dahvede and I with so many amazing friends! While Dahvede was away, many of his guy friends got engaged and married, meaning insta-friends for me :)

Last night we had "a few friends" over to play games. The short list of friends included 10 people!! Maybe to some people that doesn't seem like much, but to me that is amazing! They are all such amazing people who are not only FUN to be around, but encouraging and uplifting! They are the reason I am falling in love with Arizona! They are my family here, and I love everyone of them!

Eric, April, Katie, Christian, Jason, Marilyn, Meaghan, and Justin you guys are amazing and we love you so much!!!!

Not Me! Monday

It's been a long time, but I decided that it was time for a Not Me! Monday again! Besides, MckMama is giving something away today! How could I not?
It was absolutely NOT ME who suggested listening to a sermon to my husband on our three hour car drive and then proceeded to fall asleep. I would never leave my husband alone and bored on a road trip! Not ME!
There's no way on our return trip home yesterday, I got sick of my jeans mid-drive. I absolutely did not have hubby pull off into a deserted parking lot so I could change into my skirt. I was then NOT rewarded by sitting down on a bee who had flown onto my seat whilst I was getting my skirt. I did NOT scream and cry like a frightened child and shout at my husband (who was only trying to help) "get it off, get it off, GET IT OOOOFFFFFF!!!!!" It was NOT funny. Kinda.
After swearing I was gonna "start eating healthy" again, I absolutely did NOT go to bed last night with a bowl of Pioneer Woman's Coffee Cake and ice cream. That's just unreasonable.
I did not just answer the door with my bed hair and in my bathrobe. It is not almost 9 am. I am very responsible and of course did NOT just get up.
Hope you had fun reading my Not Me! Monday post. Head over to MckMama's and join the fun!

funny moments

I've been at Mom and Dad's tonight and we've been laughing, teasing and various other fun things...

anyways, this was a conversation that went back and forth between my parents tonight.

Mom - you know mike, in about 10 days, Havalah will be at work, and Dahvede will be here with us, sitting in your lap. 

Dad - I'll be in _________ in a week.

Mom - No, 10 days.

Dad - well he won't be sitting in my lap......

Pause

.... no, he probably will. 

Hahahahahahaha! I love my fiance... and my family. that really really made me laugh. 

*disclaimer* He would be doing it as a joke. 

Nothing much

Had you asked me two hours ago, what my plans were for my day off, I probably would have said "nothing much," and a combination of some of the following:

~ Sleep in

~ watch movies

~ maybe read a book

~ hang out with little brother

~ maybe some shopping

~ dinner

But after realizing that my fiance, Dahvede, and his mini outreach team were just TWO HOURS AWAY I did some fast moving, got ahold of him, and asked if I could come visit. It was late and I didn't know if I'd hear back from him. After a half hour, I was in the bathroom when I heard my sister answer my cell phone. Immediately I knew it was him. AKK! After talking about some of the logistics with one of his team mates, and praying about it together, they decided it would be fine for me to come hang out and tag along with them for the day! I can't wait to see him!!! I have to be there (2 hours south of here) between 8:30 and 9 am, so it's gonna be an early start, but I don't care! i am just so excited to see him for a few hours!!! 

I'm off to wash dishes and get stuff ready for the morning. As if I could even sleep being this excited!

joy

It's what I felt tonight as i glanced down at my phone. I had my phone on so it only beeps once when it goes off. I heard it go, but I assumed that it was just a text message, and since I was busy, I ignored it, planning to check it in a minute. But it kept vibrating, so i looked down. SO GLAD I DID! Dahvede called me! It's not completely uncommon for me to talk to him. In fact, we spend two hours on the phone last night. But because it's so expensive to call to cell phones here, I was not expecting him to call. He was calling just to say hi and to pray together. It was so nice to just have those few minutes catching up, sharing about our days and laughing together. Have I mentioned lately that I miss him? Good grief. I'm so over him being gone. As I was saying to someone a few days ago, "I might see him in 2 weeks, I'll definitely see him in three weeks, and in four weeks, he's home to stay." 

My project tomorrow (after I finish cleaning my room) is to make a paper chain. It's my tradition. If I can, I make one a few weeks before he comes home. I think I'll make one with mini goals of the 2, 3, and 4 week marks, because they're all exciting! I made one when Dahvede first went to Tonga on his own DTS outreach (before we were dating) and I've done it a few times since. It's fun, it childish, and it's still exciting to rip one more off everyday. I was having dinner at a friends house lately, and her husband had been gone on and off for 2 months. She has 2 small pre-school aged kids, so it makes it more difficult. Every couple of days they pull down the calender, and the kids both get to cross off a day until they see Daddy. It reminded me of my chain and inspired me to do one again. I love projects, so I'm excited! 

Ok, I've rambled enough tonight. I'm off to bed. Work will come too early tomorrow morning. G'night all!

for my sake

Have I mentioned recently that I miss Dahvede like crazy? I won't say it's quite as extreme as our captain claimed when his girlfriend (now his wife) was in the Philippines (i believe dysentary was refferenced), but I miss him. I spend most of my days thinking of him and remembering little things that I miss and things I love about him. I was looking back through our engagement photos, and ran across a few that are not right for "official" use, but I love them because they say so much about us. 

I love this photo. It's random... it's kinda silly, and it's very us. We love to go find parks, wherever we happen to be, and lay in the grass, talking, dreaming, laughing and other such joyful nonsense. that wasn't what was happening here, but it reminds me of it and i still think it is such a sweet photo :)

I forget what grabbed me about this one. It's cute and could actually be used. I think it's just our smiles that I love. happy. content. comfortable. 

I just love this one cause it's silly.  We couldn't see what the other one was doing, so we felt awkward and just started goofing off. Again, not really useable for anything, other than my pure enjoyment!!

We're total goofs, what can I say? I love him!!! I feel comfortable with him to be myself and I don't worry what he thinks when i just want to goof off and be silly!

Not Me! Monday

Not Me! Monday time again! Time for good old fashioned denial/therapy!

This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

~This week there is absolutely NO way I stayed up until 2:30am with Dahvede doing nothing of real mention, simply because I could and I wasn't working early the next day. It also had NOTHING to do with me simply wanting to spend as much time as possible with my fiance before he left for three months.

~ I did NOT buy and later eat an entire tub of sweet chili Philly with Susie. It was NOT delicious and it did NOT all disappear while I was NOT watching The Notebook. I would NOT watch that movie because it is NOT up there on my list of movies girls obsess over. Twilight is NOT also on that list.

~I did NOT get suckered into working an extra shift on Sunday. I did NOT open AND close on the same day. That is simply SILLY to agree to such ridicule! I am NOT a sucker for punishment!

~ I did NOT go shopping two days in a row and did NOT buy things both days. I also did NOT go to Starbucks yesterday. I did NOT enjoy it. I do NOT enjoy spending that much money on coffee and it is NO different from any other coffee.

~I did NOT come home today with every intent to NOT sit in my PJ's and NOT watch a silly girly movie while NOT eating things that I should NOT be eating (that part is real - darn it!). I was NOT dissapointed when we ended up at Mom's without the comfy clothes, or movie, or food.

~I am NOT putting off getting ready for work, even though I know I should leave in 15 minutes and I'm not dressed. I'm always VERY organized and never procrastinate.

~I have NOT NOT NOT needed to clean my room all week and put it off everytime I think of it. I am NOT running out of clean laundry. I have NOT considered buying new underwear to avoid having to clean and/or do laundry!

~That is NOT all from me this week! I am NOT going to start early next week because I LOVE being the very last person to link up for Not Me! Monday!

Random Photo Challenge

Brittany over at 4 little men and girly twins is hosting a random picture challenge today. The rules are simple, but I'm lazy so I'll copy and paste :)

March 2008 5th picture from the end or 10th picture folder {March 2008 is MY 10th folder... that's how I picked this} 5th picture from the end

So, first I looked up my March 2008 folder, and the 5th pic from the end is from nursery or creche and I don't feel good about posting it. Not my baby. Fair enough. Here's the 6th though:

Me and my buddy Sara, at elim. One of the only time I have ever curled my hair. Maybe i will today.... hmm?

And then I looked up my tenth folder down, and it's from Dahvede's photos of our anniversary and engagement. Here's the 5th from the end:

Head over to 4 little men and join in the fun!

Not Me! Monday

It's time for Not Me! Monday again! MckMama, although she is away crusing right now, hosts this fun blog carnival every monday, and she time delayed it so we can join in the fun even while she's gone! So head over here, and enjoy some of the fun!

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This week, there is no way I did any of the following!

There is absolutely no way I got up at 7am on a Saturday to go pick blueberries. That's madness.

I did not drive back and forth over a 5km stretch of road because I simply cannot follow directions or be bothered reading road signs. That is never something I would ever do!

I did not go to the grocery store late one night craving ice cream and come away with diet food. That's just silly. Who does that?

I did not sit through the entire Back to the Future Trilogy over the weekend just so I could spend time with my fiance. I am SO not one of "those" girls.

I didn't neglect doing this until it was no longer Monday, but in fact Thursday.

I am NOT drinking coffee at 9pm the day before I have to be up and out of the house by 7:15am. I would never do something so foolish and irresponsible.

I am not ready for bed despite not drinking coffee at a ridiculously early hour to not be tired at. 

I am not signing off in hopes of early sleep tonight.

It's Love...

I'm home. I've been off work a lot lately because my boss is out of town and since this is down time for Dahvede, we decided to go stay with my parents for a few days to relax. It's been great, but I missed my room, my bed, my closet, and my computer. Don't get me wrong, Dahvede was very accomodating and even let me use his computer for endless wedding websites and bookmark a whole stack of pages. Good Grief, the man even saved my email and facebook login info on one of the browsers so I wouldn't have to go through the trouble of re-entering it everytime. It's love. 

(yes, we are THAT nerdy couple)

All that to say, I still am glad to home, late at night when it's quiet, with a drink and my own dear, faithful laptop that has MY stuff on it and has MY bookmarks and settings. Am I a complete lunatic? My fiance and little brother both have nicer, newer computers than me, but I love mine. It's been with me for so long. It's had a busted key on it since it was about two weeks old. It's got so many smudges I don't know if I could get them off if I tried. She's had tea spilt on her. She's been bumped, knocked, dropped (kinda), stood on (two year old) and yet she stays strong (mostly). 

Oh dear, I just had a "you've got mail" moment. anyone remember frank? the crazy ex-boyfriend who writes columns about how in love with his type-writer he is? I just did that, huh?

because I can

40 Secrets About Yourself.
If your tagged do this then tag 10 of your friends.
Be honest no matter what.

[One] Have you ever been asked out?
yup :) only once I ever cared about

[two] Where was your default picture taken?
umm.... at Jer and Lori's wedding, and my blog photo, the one of me was Natalie and Tim's wedding, and my header photo is at hemlock lake in NY!

[Three] What's your middle name?
Moriah Faith

[Four] Your current relationship status?
So completely happy being utterly taken - any questions?

[Five] what is your current mood?
mellow. 

[six] what is your current mood?
umm... really?

[seven] what color underwear are you wearing?

that is for me to know and for me to know. 

[eight] what color shirt are you wearing?
Black

[nine] do you have any pets?
no.

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, would you?
I dunno. 

[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what?
giraffe. imagine all the cool stuff you could see!

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
I guess

[thirteen] something you do a lot?
spend time online

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
nothing really. Don't stop the music by Rihanna now that I think of it. mmm... fun song.

[fifteen] do you want or have tattoos?
maybe but not right now

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as YOU?
Lauren

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
almost cried last night. but's a whole other blog

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience
not really. well, back up for worship. There was like 200 ppl there

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
not sure.

[twenty] what's the first thing ..you notice about the opposite sex?
not sure

[twenty-one] have you ever been in love?
I'm pleading the fifth

[twenty-two] if so are you still in love?
21

[twenty-three] favorite color?
Pink

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
I love most anything that the Disney channel puts out. call me lame, whatever.

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
I'm gonna go make some tuna and get some coke zero actually

[twenty-seven] do you speak any other language?
nope

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
dahvede. Just in general

[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in three words what would it be?
crazy, weird, awesome

[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
this morning when I was at the ship

[thirty-one] have you ever been kissed in the rain?
Nope, but I plan to.

[thirty-two] what are you thinking about right now?
kissing my boyfriend in the rain (hey, I'm just being honest)

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
nothing really. oh....maybe cleaning my room. my mother is coming home tomorrow after all.

[thirty-four] who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
not talking about it

[thirty-five] how often do you pray?

not as much as I want to, but I usually pray little prayers throughout my day

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
not really

[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
hmmmm.... how bout... jonas? haha.... j/k I'm not that immature! At least I didn't say cullen. *groans with frustation at every annoying person who won't stop talking about twilight*

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around the person you like?
I don't think so

[thirty-nine] what is your natural hair color?
blonde

[forty] who was the last person to make you cry?
don't remember

Weekend.... Away?

This last weekend, my good friend/weightloss partner/fellow cook and decided we wanted to get away. We had plans to go to a great tourist spot a few hours south of here and camp for a few days, but being a little pinched for cash, we decided to rock the cheap version.

Ladies and Gentlemen, we camped in my backyard. Yeah, that is something you do when you're any age between 6 and 14, but we did it. I never really got to when I was younger cause it scared me, and who cares? We had so much fun! We did a day road trip to my old town and hit the GORGEOUS beach! We went swimming, and we tanned, and we drove and it was great! 

We also watched Gone with the wind, and went out on the town and shopped. It was such a fun weekend that I would love to do again! If you never got to camp in the back yard as a kid, I strongly suggest it. Except for you Northern Hemisphere people who are in multiple feet of snow. That's not such a good idea right now!

Not Me! Monday

This is not my first time participating in Not Me! Monday and I'm not worried that I might be awful at it, but here it goes!

I did not get embarressed today when someone got in my messy car. I am not ashamed that I have not cleaned up the popcorn Oshee dumped on my back seat several weeks ago! I do not have multiple empty starbucks cups floating around in my front and back seats.

I have not forgotten to turn off my lamp several times this week when going to bed. I have no woken up any time between 4 and 8am realizing I left said light on. It has nothing to do with me reading until I fall asleep with my book in bed with me. I am not and will never be called a "bookworm." I do not have a bumper sticker on facebook proclaiming my love for books.

I did not make a trip to the grocery store tonight for mustard, BBQ sauce, and Coke Zero. I do not have any random WW cravings. Never.

I did not put off doing the dinner dishes until 11pm tonight. I did not spend 3 hours making a single card. I did not almost throw said card away because I didn't like it. I didn't manage to save it.

I did not have a midnight snack of tomatoes, broccoli and bell peppers. I did not dip said snack in Mustard (Italian Dressing for the Broccoli). Nope. Not me.

I do not ever wonder if my sisters pregnancy cravings are rubbing off on me. 

I never ever put off going to bed. I especially never do so because I don't like going to bed last and staying up hours later than everyone else makes that better somehow. It also has nothing to do with the Scrapbooking mess I may or may not have created in the last 4-5 hours, and my lack of wanting to clean it and deal with it.

I am not going to get off of my computer now, turn it off, clean up my mess, get ready for bed and go to my room. I will then absolutely not read my murder/mystery/romance novel not mentioned above for at least an hour before trying to go to sleep. I will not leave my light on again. 

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